"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."
A search on the Newspaperarchive.com database finds that this quote did indeed appear in Harris' column on Jan. 8, 1951 (syndicated in the Daily Courier of Waterloo, Iowa).
I can honestly say that I have few regrets over things that I have done in my lifetime. Those small things that caused great pain to others. In retrospect, of course I would not have done them but we are all young at a time and it is our mistakes that we learn from and are able to grow. As the quote above says, time has tempered the regrets. I can live with them.
The time has come in my life where i must make a decision. To do or not to do. Can I live with the regret of choosing not to do this?
Why am I writing this post? It's ridiculous. I've already made the choice. I'm excited about it and I know to choose to do otherwise would make me an angry bitter "i seriously hate everyone" person and that just wouldn't be nice for anyone. I simply wouldn't see the purpose of my life. I am not just a paycheck.
And so, with that said, I am going to quit my job. I do love my paycheck but the reality is I'm not getting any younger. The obituaries the other day were filled with people in their early 50s. Ack! Life can be extremely long with people living to be over a hundred and it can be just as short. I don't want to spend anymore of my time being a paycheck.
I understand that more than a few people feel the same way, but they don't have a choice. They have to continue working. I am so sorry for them, but I do have a choice and I'm going to make it.
My grand-daughter is turning 3 and her sister will be born next month. I cannot miss this life experience. I cannot live in peace knowing my grandchildren are in daycare at such a young age. It is about them now. They won't care how much money I have in the bank or not. All the toys in the world don't compare to the relationship you develop with someone.
I don't think of all the gifts I received from people. I do remember their words and I remember what they taught me. The guidance and support they gave.
Part of me is a little scared of giving up the paycheck. A lot of me is scared. But I was also afraid the first time I bought a car. Lord knows we would never be able to go out to eat like we did before. And yet we did.
I was afraid the first time we bought a house. Lord knows I would probably have to get a second job, but I didn't. I was afraid when we moved to a bigger more expensive house. And every time we made a large purchase or I started a new business.
It always worked out and it will work out this time too. The benefits and perks will last a lifetime.