I couldn't sleep for the first three nights. It amazed me at the emptiness of the house. I have 4 dogs in this house, but it was still empty without her. I woke up every few hours knowing she wasn't there. Sleep deprivation does not aid the mourning process and isn't it amazing that we go through this emotional pain and loss for a simple creature who does nothing but give us unconditional love. Yes it is love to those who scoff at such a thing. They are happy to see you whether you do or do not have food. They give us comfort. They make us laugh. They entertain us and in return they just ask to be at our side.
And now she is gone. The last time the house was this dark was in 2007 when Ginger passed away. We were not going to get another dog, but two weeks later Buddy showed up on my door stop.
I took him to the backyard where Hope immediately pounced on him. Pounced on him 3 times before we could catch her and hold her back. This little dog looked at me holding Hope by her collar. He looked at Hope and checked to see that I was indeed holding her collar. He then went up to Hope and stood on his hind legs and slapped her. Slapped her 3 times.
That was so wrong and funny as hell.
The last thing I wanted was another dog, not to mention a little dog like him.
Off to the pound he went with no hesitation. What the heck! He's small, cute and friendly. They were closed and then I saw how many cute LITTLE dogs they had. So I found him a home and it broke my heart. I did not want another dog. I very much did not want a little dog. The thought of giving him away was ripping me in half. He stayed.
And he brought so much light back into the house. The anarchy betweens the dogs was gone. He was the first male dog in this household in decades. Even though he was the youngest of the dogs, he brought the peace. Buddy and Hope were best buddies and how they played together. All was well in our world.
So now we say good bye to the last of this generation of dogs. The last generation of my adult children's childhood dogs. We said good by to Ginger in June of 2007, Busy Bee in December 2010 and lastly Hope February 15, 2011.
I have the two cocker spaniels who are 11 years old along with Buddy. Daisy had a tumor removed in 2002. It's back now and Bobbie has a swollen teat. Along with swollen ears from the infections they get due to allergies and the screaming question is WHAT are they ALLERGIC to????
No new dogs. The cocker spaniels will be spending my paycheck this year at the vets office. I really need to focus my attention on them.
Now I'm done with this topic. I really miss my dog.